Tied up and used mean! Was that worth it ???

Yes, I know, I cheated on him, that was really shit of me, but we had clarified that and apologized several times !! As compensation, I wanted to surprise him now, he had long wanted to tie me up! He then wanted me to start blowing his cock, he held my head and started to use me nastily ... He probably hasn't forgiven my slip and has now let everything out of me and my mouth !! Do you think I deserve this ???